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My mind was flawless,
I thought
Nothing could destroy what I had built-
Great towers to nothingness
Magnificence and awe
But I lacked the purity that I sought
My grave was scratched out from the earth
By my own fingertips

I've been cleaning for days now
Wiping myself off of every surface
Ruining my things and throwing it all away
I shampooed the carpets
And washed all of my clothes
I left the food by the fish
And my wallet on the nightstand

My birthday is in five days
I wish I'd have gone a year ago
Then I would have gone happy
But I broke my own heart instead
And you succeeded in destroying it

Now my infection has spread to my being
I can hardly go a minute
Without the feeling of guilt and regret
And the burning need to end my life
Because I love you
But I should have died